Please Don't Call Me
Journal Entry: Fri Oct 17, 2008, 9:56 AM
- Listening to: the air conditioning
- Reading: nothing
- Watching: nothing
- Playing: nap time
- Eating: nothing
- Drinking: nothing
Last night I wasnt myself. I wasnt genuinely me. I wasnt true to you or myself.
Yes, I think you are interesting, fun, and sexy but the night did not go as I planned. Alcohol makes me into someone I am not. I wanted to kiss you when I was sober but I would have continued to restrain myself if I hadnt drank all that wine. I forget how I react to booze on my new medication. It intensifies everything: my impulses cannot be controlled.
So, we kissed too much and we touched too much. I barely know you but I want to and that wasnt the best way to get to know someone. I agree that it is good sometimes to break physical boundaries but we nearly shattered them and now I fear we cannot go back. Maybe, we wont able to just be friends. Maybe, well lose the interest we have.
We discussed how we both dont want to date anyone but then what did we do? We drunkenly feasted on each others flesh and then collapsed into slumber. I woke up to a headache in more ways than one.
I know you said its all right. That we are only human and not to fret about it. You kissed me goodbye and said you would call me. I dont want you to call me. Im scared.
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